First of all I just wanna say that I love my life & everything about it. I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world. It’s just that sometimes I get so burnt out. Now is that time. I’m so exhausted lately. Physically & mentally. My job takes its toll on me. It’s alot of physical work…especially lately because so many people keep calling in sick & we gotta pick up the slack. Also, because I’m the supervisor so I have to deal with all the BS that comes with every job. When my weekend finally comes around all I wanna do is lay in bed all day long….but that is not a option. Of course I’ve got 10,000 things to do:

-pick makana up from my dad’s house (a 45 minute drive from my house)

-make dinner

-take the dog on a walk

-do her hw

-get kana showered

-put her to bed

-wake up & take her to school (another 45 minute drive)

-make lunch

-pick her up from the bus stop

-pick up jantzen (my god son) from my mother.in.laws

-playtime, nap time, homework, dinner, showers etc.

& in between all of this run a few errands, clean my house, maybe see my husband for a few minutes. I do this crazy cycle for 3 days (i work 10-12 hour shifts at my job so we get 3 days off!)

ITS EXHAUSTING!!!

I only see my husband once a week (opposite work schedules) It’s hard but we do what we gotta do to build this amazing life for ourselves & it WILL pay off in the end. I sometimes wonder why I do this to myself & run myself to the END like this. But, I love my husband & family sooo much. I do as much as my body will let me to make HIS life easier. I COULD be a stay@home wife & one day a stay@home mom. But WHY is it a man’s job to “bring home to bacon” & take care of me. I feel like its my job to do it all. Be a REAL WOMAN, & one day a REAL mom…that takes care of my husband, kids & brings home 1/2 the BACON!!! This is what being a woman should be about. It’s what I strive to be.